I have not had much time to share my thoughts with you in the past few weeks. My husband had neck surgery on March 10th where two cervical discs were replaced and four discs were fused together. The days before and after the surgery were filled with many challenges. My husband has had some major hurdles to overcome. Today I am happy to report things are looking much better for him.
I wrote this blog posting the other day in my journal and wanted to share it with you.
It is the first day of spring in the Catskill Mountains of upstate New York, and the wind outside my window crashes down on the wind chimes and sends then into a crazed, whirling dance. The temperature is only 22 degrees, but the morning light holds Promise. Although as I write this the sun has not cleared the mountain top, the sky is brightening – a prelude to the first rays.
It has been raining for days, a reflection of the dark struggle in our house, but today I see a dusting of snow on the porch railing. In the dim light, I can make out three black vultures riding the wind draft whipping through the valley. They make wide and wider circles that bring them farther and father away. I tell them, “There is nothing here to focus your death eyes upon. Be gone!”
Despite the temperature and the wild wind, spring is roaring in with Promise. As the dawn breaks I can feel it in the air around me. When I tune into the energy of Promise I feel an energy vibration of forest green flecked with the iridescent light of expectation.
I see this forest green alive in the tall white pines shifting and flexing in the wind gusts. I see now the first light of expectation in the sun’s rays that are beginning to show themselves. The sun is touching the mountainside and quickly reaching across the length of the mountain.
Promise feels important to this house as my husband recovers from his neck surgery. There have been many weeks in this house of anxiety pre and post the surgery. Late last night my husband’s healing finally shifted towards the Promise of a brighter future – and this morning I welcome the dawn with joyful anticipation!
